Parting

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I just woke up actually. At this time.

11.32pm

                                                This meaaaaaaaaaaaaaans,

                                                A long night waiting ahead of me. Again.

I hope I didn't jynxed that though. But, heh, I can care less anyway! 

Oh. So I was just taking a nap earlier. Cause if my limbs weren't stiff and tired I wouldn't be so much of in fatigue and take a rest stop at the WRONG TIME. Yeah. I slept in the evening around 8 and woke up around 11. So..

when I actually realized that after I woke up..

I've become like one of this guy right there.
For some absolute no comprehend-able idea why

Even now I feel like it's morning. And although I might think that would sound weird but if I told you that I felt so good and refreshed and say that I felt like today's a morning after that then... you might call it at precise rate that it may sound double as it is weird for me to say.



Oh, and I've never had too much of the 'morning freshness' every time I woke up from bed. But simply, right now and still, I've felt it like it was morning a while ago. Wouldn't it be nice when you woke up from the bed and still wearing your favourite jeans that after you overworked it with a lot of walking and running with your friends, hanging around in the mall? Well, it does for me.. and that usually happens when I was out like a light.

And finally it was now for me to tell you that I just had a hangout with my dear friends in the Mall and went to watch a movie and just.. roam around the community. The fact that has been known by hard about how it is unlikely possible to meet each other again.. or meeting each other with our school uniforms ever again. It's sad as it will cease. But, I say that, we all human beings with feelings to stumble around with the resolution to this matter in addition, should actually bear the consequences whether it's a pitiful side in the other hand or a pleasing side. Mostly would actually find it saddening, I do not know for people so malefic tend to have for someone's back. 

Anywho, I can't express on so much about how I will miss the people that I've longed studied with. The people that I've longed enjoying jokes and interesting chats with. The people that I've longed savour for the long upcoming exemption alongside. The people that I've longed for to celebrate with after the aftermath of what we have longed to study for, with the merriment of joy. Because when the final exams are over, we earn our treasures truthfully and finally; Freedom. And often not much of people would initially think about the fears towards the fact about unable to see each other again any longer, in a hefty, packed, full combination of ourselves, a group, a team, and safe to call it, as a class.

As much to how saddening it is to me inside. I fear for them as they would part ways as I will, I would be missing them too. I have been spending a lot of times with the ones I cherish my time with. Most of them are just as equal to me. They're my friends if you know the heck I'm saying.
 I love you all, too much, I'll talk excessive crazy things..

Sometimes. 

Yeah. As soon as it's over. We'll part ways and have it our own ways.

And now's the time.

Dear Friends,

I'll miss you

Antiseptics are antagonists to my anti-anaesthesia-ism

3.23am.

Woke up with a sudden realization after several doses of pills and antiseptics taken from this afternoon.

Trembling, I saw my hands when I raised them to see it for myself; cold and agitated. My head perspired and mouth laid open to take adequate amount of air while I felt my heart for a while. It was almost thumping on its most irregular basis, unfavourable to my neck and shoulders that kept on juddering, the causes in addition to my cough-aches. My throat, that seem like I'm swallowing daggers, distressingly inducing the pain to my whole self and which seems to be the most vital torturing part of my illness today.

Yes, I've got colds.

I soon figured that I've been going through these a lot of times. I know how the usual occurrences take place and the ones might causing dismay to my inner self, though it's quite obscured to any person's sight. I never tend to deliberately do so unless it's an anguish so terrible and unbearable, then I've might.



But what I should actually say is that I'm quite in a decent mood right now. My throat soothed and made me feel a little less weak now. But I still do need to continue resting for the sake of recovery. There's nobody in the house that's still up in this early dawn but still, I'm not even afraid of anything. I've got will and myself alone, to write about now whilst me drinking my milo which was hot and left on this table before I slept. I even got my medicine ready right here. Very awful. I don't intent to even look at it by the sight of its dreadful bitterness and a shockingly foul taste to my taste buds.

But obliged, this is the only way for me to get back on to my feet, ready and steady. And also this helps me to put myself into sleep, although that sounded detrimental towards my sleeping habit. Though there are no other words for 'nocturnal' in terms with the means of science, so I pretty guess I'll name it 'anti-anaesthesia-ism'.


I'll get back soon enough. With exactly two more papers to go for this O' levels. Freedom in just 4 or 3 more days to go and finally we all get to do something fun like we don't care anymore. Exciting. Fun. Everyone's talking about it. But I surely don't know which ones to start with after I've earned mine. My list are as messy as my room is.

So until then. I'll update furthermore sooner.

I'm quite exhausted for now. Good 'dawn' ! :)

November

"3 days and a quarter", the calendar seemed to assure me.


 ..because of heard and said that almost half of the things we've studied long for are done and are left with the other half to cramp our head and bum in the exam room for hours.





So I was in the car earlier, from school. And then I realized that today, it's almost November. The eleventh month of the year. Back earlier I was thinking about counting the days left until the exams are all over and think about the reward we will earn to rest for. November, a moment to not only to pleasure the fact about the end of our Examination but, to me, it is that month where I find it something recollective. The thoughts, it was a lot of them, usually when November comes near.


In that November. Things, they stayed present and auspicious to any other person in there. The moments, they came as if they were incoming, very impending, so shrewed in deception. Then you, coincidently caught within a thin glance, you were actually there. Like leaves so vulnerable to a gust. You were able to be met. Able to be seen. Able to be found when I approached so gladly and joyous through the crowds when you were still there. Until that November when everyone was able to dismiss and depart, tears broke out in everyone's eyes and none did I felt a damp on my face except, inside, the shatters for it was my heart.

And just this year, when the first time I came. I couldn't just believe my eyes.

How long has it been?

Five years? Six years?

..cause you've blossomed into a very beautiful woman

But you know what scarred me.. ?
Your absence.
The mark would never heal.

but anyways..

As if I would count...

I don't usually count time, but I do always guess things a lot of times (not time). And for some reason besides seldom disliking for being a mathe-maniac, I just don't know why. I guess this is how I roll. As just as I felt, in just a few days, November comes. I wonder what more could bring in my castle-in-the-air-ing or perhaps miracles would happen when it's time.



Though as far as I am concerned, I enjoyed remembering about you from mentioning this into my Blogger and will always do remember you when I have that endless possibility to ever see you again!

Though anyways!

I've always wondered if you were reading too :)

Where I Was

 -now playing: "The Bird and The Worm"-


                                                      ~ You and I
                                                      have left our troubles far behind
                                                      But I still have just one more question on my mind

                                      For all my friends who live in the oceans and the seas ~

                                      with fronds like these, well who need anemones? 

Wait a minute,

Did I say friends from the oceans and seas ..... o.o

Oh! Don't mind me, I was just singing a song while cleaning up my documents and files in this computer. I can guess it is as messy as my room right here. Hahaha.



So I've kept a lot of pictures and musics and other stuffs in folders. I have this habit of trying to put all of my possessions and some treasured ones in one place but failed to. And one of reasons that made it like that was I merely have a clue to use that I-don't-know-whatever auto-sort button where you can "stack" and or bundle them up into "groups". And anything else that offered me to use these buttons were to no avail as I tried to make use of them...

Clearly, I'm not that kind of a computer whiz, I confess xD

But anyway, enough of that. I've also found those old pictures that I kept in there. Most of them were blurred images and some are candids taken by my Nokia xpressmusic and I still am happy to have them saved!




But now.. I don't know whether I should keep them or just throw it away. :(
My laptop's memory space needs a bit of .... yeah, space.. before it gets laggier soon.

And I don't feel like throwing these away. Each of them has a reason to be shot. And I don't feel like expressing the value it all has to me to you right now... maybe one day I'll explain. I guess. :p

So....................................................

I'll leave Blogger for now with these here..

              

Weekdays' are coming again.

A set of busy days for some of you would encounter any soon.

But anyway I hope you're all well and feeling fine                  
and prepared for I don't know you guys are in for                     

xD

Right now I feel like I have the urge to go sky diving one day...
I would say.

-------------

Sky Pilot Ryde-R

Signing out!

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Good Evening! :)

Alone on the outside. So tired of looking in.

When you're down and feel alone.. what would you do?

Or how about if you're as if you've swallowed yourself in a cold, deep room..?


A room so vague, everything was there to convince
you with an unknown resolute determination
of some sort. You don't even know it's coming..


..And you almost had no other way out

 well it's not my room

I'm referring to........ 

Inquiries.

                             they're in my head....

                             why are they even in my head?

                             and how were they even possible

                             to exist in there.. in that time?

                                          

I swear I wasn't sleeping at that time..
Unbearable, 
I perceived it was something notional

Though, during my sleeps..

I would have let my mind sail

off to an empty space where wonder lies beyond

but Ironically.

                 there came the questions again...

                          unwilling to let inside, they flutter in my sleep

                          causing to clutter all around the

                          messed decisions I tried so hard 

                          pondering about through that night..

                          and even in my dream,
                          I was put upon by these...

which in turn the following morning would

end up me feeling all unhappy and sagged..

 

This sucks..
I don't want this
                         .....Please leave me.




Oh! Hello glowing Sun... a Happy Morning to you...