November

"3 days and a quarter", the calendar seemed to assure me.


 ..because of heard and said that almost half of the things we've studied long for are done and are left with the other half to cramp our head and bum in the exam room for hours.





So I was in the car earlier, from school. And then I realized that today, it's almost November. The eleventh month of the year. Back earlier I was thinking about counting the days left until the exams are all over and think about the reward we will earn to rest for. November, a moment to not only to pleasure the fact about the end of our Examination but, to me, it is that month where I find it something recollective. The thoughts, it was a lot of them, usually when November comes near.


In that November. Things, they stayed present and auspicious to any other person in there. The moments, they came as if they were incoming, very impending, so shrewed in deception. Then you, coincidently caught within a thin glance, you were actually there. Like leaves so vulnerable to a gust. You were able to be met. Able to be seen. Able to be found when I approached so gladly and joyous through the crowds when you were still there. Until that November when everyone was able to dismiss and depart, tears broke out in everyone's eyes and none did I felt a damp on my face except, inside, the shatters for it was my heart.

And just this year, when the first time I came. I couldn't just believe my eyes.

How long has it been?

Five years? Six years?

..cause you've blossomed into a very beautiful woman

But you know what scarred me.. ?
Your absence.
The mark would never heal.

but anyways..

As if I would count...

I don't usually count time, but I do always guess things a lot of times (not time). And for some reason besides seldom disliking for being a mathe-maniac, I just don't know why. I guess this is how I roll. As just as I felt, in just a few days, November comes. I wonder what more could bring in my castle-in-the-air-ing or perhaps miracles would happen when it's time.



Though as far as I am concerned, I enjoyed remembering about you from mentioning this into my Blogger and will always do remember you when I have that endless possibility to ever see you again!

Though anyways!

I've always wondered if you were reading too :)

Where I Was

 -now playing: "The Bird and The Worm"-


                                                      ~ You and I
                                                      have left our troubles far behind
                                                      But I still have just one more question on my mind

                                      For all my friends who live in the oceans and the seas ~

                                      with fronds like these, well who need anemones? 

Wait a minute,

Did I say friends from the oceans and seas ..... o.o

Oh! Don't mind me, I was just singing a song while cleaning up my documents and files in this computer. I can guess it is as messy as my room right here. Hahaha.



So I've kept a lot of pictures and musics and other stuffs in folders. I have this habit of trying to put all of my possessions and some treasured ones in one place but failed to. And one of reasons that made it like that was I merely have a clue to use that I-don't-know-whatever auto-sort button where you can "stack" and or bundle them up into "groups". And anything else that offered me to use these buttons were to no avail as I tried to make use of them...

Clearly, I'm not that kind of a computer whiz, I confess xD

But anyway, enough of that. I've also found those old pictures that I kept in there. Most of them were blurred images and some are candids taken by my Nokia xpressmusic and I still am happy to have them saved!




But now.. I don't know whether I should keep them or just throw it away. :(
My laptop's memory space needs a bit of .... yeah, space.. before it gets laggier soon.

And I don't feel like throwing these away. Each of them has a reason to be shot. And I don't feel like expressing the value it all has to me to you right now... maybe one day I'll explain. I guess. :p

So....................................................

I'll leave Blogger for now with these here..

              

Weekdays' are coming again.

A set of busy days for some of you would encounter any soon.

But anyway I hope you're all well and feeling fine                  
and prepared for I don't know you guys are in for                     

xD

Right now I feel like I have the urge to go sky diving one day...
I would say.

-------------

Sky Pilot Ryde-R

Signing out!

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Good Evening! :)

Alone on the outside. So tired of looking in.

When you're down and feel alone.. what would you do?

Or how about if you're as if you've swallowed yourself in a cold, deep room..?


A room so vague, everything was there to convince
you with an unknown resolute determination
of some sort. You don't even know it's coming..


..And you almost had no other way out

 well it's not my room

I'm referring to........ 

Inquiries.

                             they're in my head....

                             why are they even in my head?

                             and how were they even possible

                             to exist in there.. in that time?

                                          

I swear I wasn't sleeping at that time..
Unbearable, 
I perceived it was something notional

Though, during my sleeps..

I would have let my mind sail

off to an empty space where wonder lies beyond

but Ironically.

                 there came the questions again...

                          unwilling to let inside, they flutter in my sleep

                          causing to clutter all around the

                          messed decisions I tried so hard 

                          pondering about through that night..

                          and even in my dream,
                          I was put upon by these...

which in turn the following morning would

end up me feeling all unhappy and sagged..

 

This sucks..
I don't want this
                         .....Please leave me.




Oh! Hello glowing Sun... a Happy Morning to you...

I like Green and Blue and a little bit of You

I'm all lightened!

So you've seen it.

I guess I'll stay a little bit whitey with this cool new template and background I've put on.

I even put up a new picture above! This picture signifies the scene I would view myself as I listen to the very first song I've heard from Adam Young's  Rainbow Veins  :)

In the vast mind of his inspiring creativity and optimism towards the Earth.

Adam,

you're one great songwriter I've ever known right now.

It'll be a remembrance for that line situated in the picture itself too! One of those reason why I've used the name 'Streetlights' for almost everything of my possessions

And if you did realize the green fonts, whenever you hover them it turns blue! 

Hehe :) Green and Blue.. my favourite. Reminds me of my room...

And this picture right here!

lovely isn't it?

it's just about to remind me of You    :)

I never lost you

Yesterday..
                   ..was the 22th of October of the year 2010


I witnessed a night that day would occur in about a few hours later before that clock struck past 12 midnight. With a few prayers quietly said in my small heart and my eyes closed hoping to be truly granted, I wish for another beautiful, delightful and great humble year to welcome my beloved dearest one.

Happy 57th birthday,

Babu <3

And I still immensely am feeling glad of having you around. My whole heart would crash down and topple over from my soul. Just as how the ocean waves would end up crashing along a shore so hostile. The white-casts that formed, that slowly fades. Just as how my spirit would be as sorrow swept over me. Frightened, I might not know if time would even ease the pain away... if it hurts that bad....

So I agreed to arrange for that evening. 

I've hoped it would bring a great deal of merriment for the dinner itself we've planned for you.

 

I just really hope you're happy :)

...I always never wanted to lose you...

Alleviate

3:31am. Sitting up. Listening to songs. Sooner or later I'll be carried away and therefore the clock would surely almost pass to dawn.

If this table lamp continues to illumine this solitary night, it would seem mockingly depriving my needs to rest for I already knew sleeping is, officially, hopeless for a problematic youngster like myself.

cause insomnia strikes again.

It's amazing.
..well, not totally that amazing



 of how I don't get much attention to myself and wouldn't rather be sleeping in bed for even just twice a day. Last year, I used to take, at a usual rate, a preposterously 5 and a slightly bits of fitful hours each day. During those other hours was me sitting and daydreaming, neglecting those homeworks and tasks I was ought to complete and hand it in to school the next few days.


That, I would blame the dull late nights that kept occurring to me. Obliging myself or to put myself to sleep doesn't work either way. Somehow, I actually thought of a belief ; The Law of Sleeping. It might be that sleeping is supposed to be a natural thing to put people to their subconscious state, and then sleeping happens. I don't know for some people, they might find it easy to fall asleep. They won't have to worry since those people are light sleepers. Well, possibly they find it advantageous or the opposite. It could be a same thing for someone the opposite like oh, I don't know. A heavy sleeper like me I guess?

and needless for me to say,
it isn't awkward to see I haven't changed that much.

Also, late nights were spent playing routinely the only game I loved with my bro - Fiesta. Whenever he's not available I might still be capable of staying up but those times were before I get accustomed to be like a nightwatcher. That was kind of an inside codename to refer to my brother. And I am guessing he still bears that title when I actually heard him sneeze in the next room! hahaha.


And so this year, I stopped that game ever since February. Not only the good quality of the internet of ours discourages any further use but the 'O' levels as well. One of the clearly proved reasons to put a stop to this unwanted habit.

And now bad habits seemed to be one of the most things

that I can't handle amidst my tasks to be done with

along with the other things I simply want to do

I have to put an end to this
...But it keeps getting into me
Maybe I should just lessen it
...I know I believe I can



There was one said...

Sacrifices can be only mean losing something
but from my point of view, people does that to 
bring upon a good cause.

and even if sacrificing something good

for a slightly bad cause and a better cause

would be also a wise thing to do.

And so.. I might be finding the time for me to miss the nights. 

and probably enjoy a bit of a 

new change.

I found most early mornings are so pleasant at its fullest
and now I hope I'll be welcomed if I happen to visit them lots of time.

And I know it's not ALWAYS a bad thing to stay up late, depends on the conditions. With the experience of frequently being up late could be a good use for a person who actually has the dire need to maybe finish a homework? Hehe. Though, despite the feedbacks for the morning mood later, at least you get it done with! :P

Woop! It's 5am.

I should sleep now~ 

Goodbye now, and good mornings to the insomniacs and morning shiners all around!

:)

Tensions enclosed. Memories be recalled

Wow

Firstly,
I'd like to say, gladly, that I'm still alive after encountering that couple of exam papers ever since the time that I started to realize it's here and now.

But I'm quite comfortable besides the pressure right now. I'm enjoying this left-over spaghetti that was from this morning. Heheheheh. It's so cheeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzie, I would fight for it to have it finished :F

Anyway!

So it had came to my attention that there were many things that happened here and there. There had been a lot since then. Before, we've had that celebrations symbolising the ending day of our school classes, and the day after was the starting of our study leave. I couldn't feel anymore pleased than to recall how amazing it was that day.



Misty eyes, there were on every each of our faces -- well, most of us had the joy is the least I can remember. Spending every last minute to meet friends in a class-grouped form was anyone's least task to complete before it's too late. I've imagined how it all went before it did, and by majority; everyone have probably hid those sorrow feelings inside. I did the same too. Weeping would be an optional, but holding it out would hurt much more. I should hold this in until later, I mused. So I started giving regards before the time we part ways to journey on own.



The fact how everyone was about to miss the hours of classes that gave us the strains. The hours of classes that we've slacked off. The hours of classes that we've put so much efforts on to, we were nearly dead by then. The hours of classes we've had our lovely teachers causing us to gag ourselves with laughter. Yes, the fact about those, it's gonna end...


Well, we still do have some extra classes just right before an exam starts. Tomorrow would be the last to see our English Language teacher; Miss Yin, in class. This is going to be sad...


A lil' bit of her. She's one my favourite persons in my school life. She had been the most caring towards us ever since we were her first Class Teacher - that was last year, but still it seems to me that she's still the one courteous Class Teacher that I've had.



I'll leave these pictures here.
I'll remember these as much as I can.
Until another day would hurl me with its pang of anxiety again.

I wish you all well, until then.

Hope to see you all again!

And I wear specs now.

I can see you now!

Let time be elapsed for any good causes

uh...

Ohai!

What might be the stupidest thing to a sensible person happened was that yesterday's glance at something on one of the tuition tables. I clearly didn't expect anything else to brighten me up that night, except for the usual serenity I can listen to from the playlists in my cellphone.

The moment I opened the door numbered "6", and as I drew my hands off from rubbing my jaded eyes, I beheld a remarkable sight drawn at a precisely large scale; A table with an outline of two bean-like shaped drawing, somewhat familiar, where in the center of it says:

 PLACE BUTT

HERE

I find it awkward being from an anxious state, cause I was sleeping and slacking all day at home, to a feeling where I practically laugh as hysterically as how hard I could have hurt my ribs, trying to retain my composure.

I was lucky that nobody heard me being a complete maniac in the tiny room.

It wasn't epic - honestly said. 

It was just like an inside joke of mine :P but wow, that really cracked me up all of the sudden. And I really pray everyday for that it would start off with a bright day each day :)

Anyway! I should start getting back to my revisions. This maths is getting onto my nerves :|