Saturday, October 23, 2010

I like Green and Blue and a little bit of You

I'm all lightened!




So you've seen it.
I guess I'll stay a little bit whitey with this cool new template and background I've put on.


I even put up a new picture above! This picture signifies the scene I would view myself as I listen to the very first song I've heard from Adam Young's  Rainbow Veins  :)



In the vast mind of his inspiring creativity and optimism towards the Earth.
Adam,
you're one great songwriter I've ever known right now.




It'll be a remembrance for that line situated in the picture itself too! One of those reason why I've used the name 'Streetlights' for almost everything of my possessions



And if you did realize the green fonts, whenever you hover them it turns blue! 
Hehe :) Green and Blue.. my favourite. Reminds me of my room...


And this picture right here!


lovely isn't it?




it's just about to remind me of You    :)

I never lost you

Yesterday..
                   ..was the 22th of October of the year 2010


I witnessed a night that day would occur in about a few hours later before that clock struck past 12 midnight. With a few prayers quietly said in my small heart and my eyes closed hoping to be truly granted, I wish for another beautiful, delightful and great humble year to welcome my beloved dearest one.

Happy 57th birthday,
Babu <3


And I still immensely am feeling glad of having you around. My whole heart would crash down and topple over from my soul. Just as how the ocean waves would end up crashing along a shore so hostile. The white-casts that formed, that slowly fades. Just as how my spirit would be as sorrow swept over me. Frightened, I might not know if time would even ease the pain away... if it hurts that bad....



So I agreed to arrange for that evening. 


I've hoped it would bring a great deal of merriment for the dinner itself we've planned for you.



 




I just really hope you're happy :)
...I always never wanted to lose you...

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Alleviate

3:31am. Sitting up. Listening to songs. Sooner or later I'll be carried away and therefore the clock would surely almost pass to dawn.

If this table lamp continues to illumine this solitary night, it would seem mockingly depriving my needs to rest for I already knew sleeping is, officially, hopeless for a problematic youngster like myself.


cause insomnia strikes again.







It's amazing.
..well, not totally that amazing



 of how I don't get much attention to myself and wouldn't rather be sleeping in bed for even just twice a day. Last year, I used to take, at a usual rate, a preposterously 5 and a slightly bits of fitful hours each day. During those other hours was me sitting and daydreaming, neglecting those homeworks and tasks I was ought to complete and hand it in to school the next few days.


That, I would blame the dull late nights that kept occurring to me. Obliging myself or to put myself to sleep doesn't work either way. Somehow, I actually thought of a belief ; The Law of Sleeping. It might be that sleeping is supposed to be a natural thing to put people to their subconscious state, and then sleeping happens. I don't know for some people, they might find it easy to fall asleep. They won't have to worry since those people are light sleepers. Well, possibly they find it advantageous or the opposite. It could be a same thing for someone the opposite like oh, I don't know. A heavy sleeper like me I guess?



and needless for me to say,
it isn't awkward to see I haven't changed that much.



Also, late nights were spent playing routinely the only game I loved with my bro - Fiesta. Whenever he's not available I might still be capable of staying up but those times were before I get accustomed to be like a nightwatcher. That was kind of an inside codename to refer to my brother. And I am guessing he still bears that title when I actually heard him sneeze in the next room! hahaha.


And so this year, I stopped that game ever since February. Not only the good quality of the internet of ours discourages any further use but the 'O' levels as well. One of the clearly proved reasons to put a stop to this unwanted habit.

And now bad habits seemed to be one of the most things
that I can't handle amidst my tasks to be done with
along with the other things I simply want to do




I have to put an end to this
...But it keeps getting into me
Maybe I should just lessen it
...I know I believe I can



There was one said...

Sacrifices can be only mean losing something
but from my point of view, people does that to 
bring upon a good cause.

and even if sacrificing something good
for a slightly bad cause and a better cause
would be also a wise thing to do.


And so.. I might be finding the time for me to miss the nights. 
and probably enjoy a bit of a 

new change.




I found most early mornings are so pleasant at its fullest
and now I hope I'll be welcomed if I happen to visit them lots of time.







And I know it's not ALWAYS a bad thing to stay up late, depends on the conditions. With the experience of frequently being up late could be a good use for a person who actually has the dire need to maybe finish a homework? Hehe. Though, despite the feedbacks for the morning mood later, at least you get it done with! :P



Woop! It's 5am.

I should sleep now~ 


Goodbye now, and good mornings to the insomniacs and morning shiners all around!


:)

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Tensions enclosed. Memories be recalled

Wow


Firstly,
I'd like to say, gladly, that I'm still alive after encountering that couple of exam papers ever since the time that I started to realize it's here and now.

But I'm quite comfortable besides the pressure right now. I'm enjoying this left-over spaghetti that was from this morning. Heheheheh. It's so cheeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzie, I would fight for it to have it finished :F




Anyway!

So it had came to my attention that there were many things that happened here and there. There had been a lot since then. Before, we've had that celebrations symbolising the ending day of our school classes, and the day after was the starting of our study leave. I couldn't feel anymore pleased than to recall how amazing it was that day.



Misty eyes, there were on every each of our faces -- well, most of us had the joy is the least I can remember. Spending every last minute to meet friends in a class-grouped form was anyone's least task to complete before it's too late. I've imagined how it all went before it did, and by majority; everyone have probably hid those sorrow feelings inside. I did the same too. Weeping would be an optional, but holding it out would hurt much more. I should hold this in until later, I mused. So I started giving regards before the time we part ways to journey on own.



The fact how everyone was about to miss the hours of classes that gave us the strains. The hours of classes that we've slacked off. The hours of classes that we've put so much efforts on to, we were nearly dead by then. The hours of classes we've had our lovely teachers causing us to gag ourselves with laughter. Yes, the fact about those, it's gonna end...


Well, we still do have some extra classes just right before an exam starts. Tomorrow would be the last to see our English Language teacher; Miss Yin, in class. This is going to be sad...


A lil' bit of her. She's one my favourite persons in my school life. She had been the most caring towards us ever since we were her first Class Teacher - that was last year, but still it seems to me that she's still the one courteous Class Teacher that I've had.



I'll leave these pictures here.
I'll remember these as much as I can.
Until another day would hurl me with its pang of anxiety again.








I wish you all well, until then.
Hope to see you all again!







And I wear specs now.
I can see you now!

Friday, October 1, 2010

Let time be elapsed for any good causes

uh...
Ohai!


What might be the stupidest thing to a sensible person happened was that yesterday's glance at something on one of the tuition tables. I clearly didn't expect anything else to brighten me up that night, except for the usual serenity I can listen to from the playlists in my cellphone.


The moment I opened the door numbered "6", and as I drew my hands off from rubbing my jaded eyes, I beheld a remarkable sight drawn at a precisely large scale; A table with an outline of two bean-like shaped drawing, somewhat familiar, where in the center of it says:




 PLACE BUTT
HERE


I find it awkward being from an anxious state, cause I was sleeping and slacking all day at home, to a feeling where I practically laugh as hysterically as how hard I could have hurt my ribs, trying to retain my composure.
I was lucky that nobody heard me being a complete maniac in the tiny room.


It wasn't epic - honestly said. 

It was just like an inside joke of mine :P but wow, that really cracked me up all of the sudden. And I really pray everyday for that it would start off with a bright day each day :)




Anyway! I should start getting back to my revisions. This maths is getting onto my nerves :|